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Forgive me, but due to my homelessness, time is of the essence so this may seem and read all over the place and sporadic. But I have to try....
A long time ago, during 2010, I joined this forum after learning about the hynudai genesis in 2009. And began working on designs for both interior and exterior and sharing them with you guys, with the limited software and hardware packages I was and still am stuck with (though my abilities now are much greater see links below,) this was all I was able to do for you guys at the time if any of you remember.
Now since, in spite of all the abuse and adversity you'll come to read about, I have elevated my design abilities to this level, studying my two mentors for the last 4 and a half years for my video game work that I've been doing for nearly a decade now.
That being said, I began to write a letter to hyundai for help because I was hurt in an auto accident trying to work up enough money at a dead end job to go back to school, and acquire a hyundai genesis while attending. All my life I grew up being told I wouldn't amount to anything in the world, so my art is my only outlet that gives me solace and the strength, keeps me sound and resolute when all seems hopeless and lost. So I just wanted something to try and help convince not just me aesthetically, but others while driving on the road not to think less of me based on what I drive, so what.... I was vain for a minute for a good reason
That being said, in Nov of 2011, I knew things were heading in a bad direction I could just feel it to my core. I was on my way back from school, from the train station, and a cop pulled me over that thursday night and harassed me and gave me a ticket. Now I don't know why it was right then, driving a beat up ford taurus that was more of a pain in my rear than I can describe, some beater I had to get after the wreck, love my 03 Elantra, thing was a champ. But back on the rails, I knew during that stop, that the pressure and abuse I had been dealing with from my family, and the weight of the accident and my injuries, on top of falling behind in school due to the at home dysfunction making it hard to function myself.... I began to write what I called, an "SOS" letter for help, a bit of a moonshot if you will. You miss 100% of the shots you don't take, so it's take a shot time.
here
This is the short URL to my page that's not finished or launched yet, I've been homeless for the last 6 weeks due to family dysfunction that could be read or found in the page link. But to save people the novel read, I got accused of stealing drugs from my parents even though my younger brother has a severe pain pill and possibly now heroine problem, who throughout the last 6 months, has escalated to a point where he was stealing money from my parents bank accounts, stealing TVs from the house and pawning them, well just about anything, stealing my prescription drugs to fight my cancer, and the pain from my auto accident. It's like a double whammy that one btw, joint pain from injury worsened by leukemia and the pill that affects your joints. I'll never forget the the night I got out of the hospital from almost dying in October of 2014, getting chemo around the clock for 4 days straight. It was a cake walk compared to being trapped at my parents house without a vehicle, money, food, you name it.
My white count was at 186K, and I was nearing end stage blast crisis and my body hadn't been responding well the TKI pill I'm told I have to take for the rest of my life unless I can attain a cure via a bone marrow transplant. I was diagnosed officially on June 16th of 2014, and was looking for it in the summer of 2012, June as well. But my family balked at me about it, told me I was crazy, told me to go to the nuthouse, told me it was all in my head, you name it, they said it and I after being battered by it enough times, I eventually believed them and stopped looking. Lone and behold though, poor old Kristopher was right, and 2 and a half years later I found it. After going to the ER in May of 2014, for a swollen throat, ears that made me feel like my brain was trying to out-swell my skull, it was pretty bad as I sat originally in the waiting room ER for 6 and a half hours with ice packs on each ear. Only the be kicked out numerous times over the next 6 weeks for not having any insurance due to my poverty issue and my "family" never letting my use a car consistently enough to get anything done, or eat. One thing I should note was, due to my financial situation, I went completely untreated after being diagnosed for nearly 6 months....
(back on the rails) At one point they starved me for 5 days (stuck living out in the boonies, nothing around) because they thought again that I had stole some pot from them, they asked everyone in the house, and for some reason I was the only one who got punished to any extent. I lived off of my pears and vegansmart meal replacement for 5 days straight.... and then was allowed to eat one time the 6th day because I had told people outside of the house about it, they got embarrassed and ashamed, so they let me eat, then starved me again for another two days just to send a message.
This went on and on and still does to this day, and just recently, state I live in, Illinois, is attempting to pull my coverage from medicaid and I have been without my leukemia medication ever since, it was supposed to be filled this past weds the 15th, but like I mentioned, every medical professional and healthcare facility refused to help, and only told me that the state is justing being the villain, and there's nothing they can do. This prescription drug, costs over 11K a month, something like 11,600 I think, I'll have to check my last script sheet to find out the exact amount. But the point is, I'm at the end of my rope.... The pharmacist who works near the one I can only get to by foot said that worst comes to, just come in and she'll just give them to me against all rules etc. just so I don't die, otherwise I wind up in an ER and their oncology ward by the time it's too late. So she's contemplating breaking the law in a big way just to keep me alive for a little bit longer, angel in disguise I guess. At any rate.... there's so much I can't cover in this little amount of time I have access to the internet. I wanted this to come across as clear as possible and make sense to all of you in the most succinct way as well.
So I'm just going to upload the unfinished letter that I couldn't continue to write when my laptop crashed and I had to find a way to recover my hard drive data.
Which was done by another miracle of a man named Robert Lim, who works for DataRescueMDs in Lake Villa Illinois. I couldn't have stumbled across a better individual for the job/task. He did it for free, revered 600GBs of data, mostly me documenting the abuse that I've been enduring all these years to compile the proper video for my crowdfunding page. Also, to recover my letter. The pain from the injuries has gotten so that I can't focus or remember much when I'm in the seated position, so trying to restart the letter was far too daunting, I needed this draft to help me pick up where I left off.... so here that is (I uploaded it as an attachment, dunno how that works here on this forum, wonder what kind of script of code controls that....)
UPDATE : I see in in the attachments tab below, heres' to hoping it uploads.
I just want to try and hold on long enough to see if this community can help, or if I should just launch unready and hope to god that someone here would help. Like the way hyundai apparently saw my ideas for the 2012 r-sepc and used them by trying to emulate the steinway piano black gloss wood trim that BMW uses in their cars for interior trim being one of them. Though I gotta, say, they've really strayed away from that aesthetic that made that car so popular
Though I will add, the sonata finally doesn't look extremely ugly anymore, definitely a big upgrade
Its got some work to go, but I think the new Genesis should've been the new Sonata or Azera, and the Rspect design should've been left as is for the time being. It's funny that this car still sticks with me all these years even over my dream car, well I have two, but primarily one, The 2015 30 Jaher/Year special addition M5 and or the X5M. Cant tell you how many times I've seen that X5M being driven by women that didn't pay the 160K for it walking the streets near the city of Chicago.... kinda sickens me, but I digress.
Though as you all will read, I'm not expecting for someone to go give me one of those, the car I was looking at was only 4K, well, I talked them own to 3500 and he was willing to let me put 2500 down and work the rest off, which would be godsend because I could do that, and with a vehicle of my own (been without one since January of 2013 because my parents stole the last of my money for a car when my taurus died,) I'd be able to at least stay off the street, and do a better job of getting to and from doctors to remedy this nearly fatal situation. 6 weeks on the street with cancer, has really hardened me, I'm amazed Im still even alive.
Churches helping here and there, only ones I can walk to from the local library for wifi access. It's getting to a point where I'm not really sure how long I'm going to be able to hang on and stick around to see if anyone could actually help.
So I write this as a plea for my life to any place that I've been before that showed me empathy and compassion or appreciation at any level. I've been looking for 6 words me entire life, "The most basic of human compassions," and have only found it in the places one would expect the least.
So I pray with every iota in my being, that you guys can help.
Regards & Respectfully Kristopher
A long time ago, during 2010, I joined this forum after learning about the hynudai genesis in 2009. And began working on designs for both interior and exterior and sharing them with you guys, with the limited software and hardware packages I was and still am stuck with (though my abilities now are much greater see links below,) this was all I was able to do for you guys at the time if any of you remember.
Now since, in spite of all the abuse and adversity you'll come to read about, I have elevated my design abilities to this level, studying my two mentors for the last 4 and a half years for my video game work that I've been doing for nearly a decade now.
That being said, I began to write a letter to hyundai for help because I was hurt in an auto accident trying to work up enough money at a dead end job to go back to school, and acquire a hyundai genesis while attending. All my life I grew up being told I wouldn't amount to anything in the world, so my art is my only outlet that gives me solace and the strength, keeps me sound and resolute when all seems hopeless and lost. So I just wanted something to try and help convince not just me aesthetically, but others while driving on the road not to think less of me based on what I drive, so what.... I was vain for a minute for a good reason
That being said, in Nov of 2011, I knew things were heading in a bad direction I could just feel it to my core. I was on my way back from school, from the train station, and a cop pulled me over that thursday night and harassed me and gave me a ticket. Now I don't know why it was right then, driving a beat up ford taurus that was more of a pain in my rear than I can describe, some beater I had to get after the wreck, love my 03 Elantra, thing was a champ. But back on the rails, I knew during that stop, that the pressure and abuse I had been dealing with from my family, and the weight of the accident and my injuries, on top of falling behind in school due to the at home dysfunction making it hard to function myself.... I began to write what I called, an "SOS" letter for help, a bit of a moonshot if you will. You miss 100% of the shots you don't take, so it's take a shot time.
here
This is the short URL to my page that's not finished or launched yet, I've been homeless for the last 6 weeks due to family dysfunction that could be read or found in the page link. But to save people the novel read, I got accused of stealing drugs from my parents even though my younger brother has a severe pain pill and possibly now heroine problem, who throughout the last 6 months, has escalated to a point where he was stealing money from my parents bank accounts, stealing TVs from the house and pawning them, well just about anything, stealing my prescription drugs to fight my cancer, and the pain from my auto accident. It's like a double whammy that one btw, joint pain from injury worsened by leukemia and the pill that affects your joints. I'll never forget the the night I got out of the hospital from almost dying in October of 2014, getting chemo around the clock for 4 days straight. It was a cake walk compared to being trapped at my parents house without a vehicle, money, food, you name it.
My white count was at 186K, and I was nearing end stage blast crisis and my body hadn't been responding well the TKI pill I'm told I have to take for the rest of my life unless I can attain a cure via a bone marrow transplant. I was diagnosed officially on June 16th of 2014, and was looking for it in the summer of 2012, June as well. But my family balked at me about it, told me I was crazy, told me to go to the nuthouse, told me it was all in my head, you name it, they said it and I after being battered by it enough times, I eventually believed them and stopped looking. Lone and behold though, poor old Kristopher was right, and 2 and a half years later I found it. After going to the ER in May of 2014, for a swollen throat, ears that made me feel like my brain was trying to out-swell my skull, it was pretty bad as I sat originally in the waiting room ER for 6 and a half hours with ice packs on each ear. Only the be kicked out numerous times over the next 6 weeks for not having any insurance due to my poverty issue and my "family" never letting my use a car consistently enough to get anything done, or eat. One thing I should note was, due to my financial situation, I went completely untreated after being diagnosed for nearly 6 months....
(back on the rails) At one point they starved me for 5 days (stuck living out in the boonies, nothing around) because they thought again that I had stole some pot from them, they asked everyone in the house, and for some reason I was the only one who got punished to any extent. I lived off of my pears and vegansmart meal replacement for 5 days straight.... and then was allowed to eat one time the 6th day because I had told people outside of the house about it, they got embarrassed and ashamed, so they let me eat, then starved me again for another two days just to send a message.
This went on and on and still does to this day, and just recently, state I live in, Illinois, is attempting to pull my coverage from medicaid and I have been without my leukemia medication ever since, it was supposed to be filled this past weds the 15th, but like I mentioned, every medical professional and healthcare facility refused to help, and only told me that the state is justing being the villain, and there's nothing they can do. This prescription drug, costs over 11K a month, something like 11,600 I think, I'll have to check my last script sheet to find out the exact amount. But the point is, I'm at the end of my rope.... The pharmacist who works near the one I can only get to by foot said that worst comes to, just come in and she'll just give them to me against all rules etc. just so I don't die, otherwise I wind up in an ER and their oncology ward by the time it's too late. So she's contemplating breaking the law in a big way just to keep me alive for a little bit longer, angel in disguise I guess. At any rate.... there's so much I can't cover in this little amount of time I have access to the internet. I wanted this to come across as clear as possible and make sense to all of you in the most succinct way as well.
So I'm just going to upload the unfinished letter that I couldn't continue to write when my laptop crashed and I had to find a way to recover my hard drive data.
Which was done by another miracle of a man named Robert Lim, who works for DataRescueMDs in Lake Villa Illinois. I couldn't have stumbled across a better individual for the job/task. He did it for free, revered 600GBs of data, mostly me documenting the abuse that I've been enduring all these years to compile the proper video for my crowdfunding page. Also, to recover my letter. The pain from the injuries has gotten so that I can't focus or remember much when I'm in the seated position, so trying to restart the letter was far too daunting, I needed this draft to help me pick up where I left off.... so here that is (I uploaded it as an attachment, dunno how that works here on this forum, wonder what kind of script of code controls that....)
UPDATE : I see in in the attachments tab below, heres' to hoping it uploads.
I just want to try and hold on long enough to see if this community can help, or if I should just launch unready and hope to god that someone here would help. Like the way hyundai apparently saw my ideas for the 2012 r-sepc and used them by trying to emulate the steinway piano black gloss wood trim that BMW uses in their cars for interior trim being one of them. Though I gotta, say, they've really strayed away from that aesthetic that made that car so popular
Though I will add, the sonata finally doesn't look extremely ugly anymore, definitely a big upgrade
Its got some work to go, but I think the new Genesis should've been the new Sonata or Azera, and the Rspect design should've been left as is for the time being. It's funny that this car still sticks with me all these years even over my dream car, well I have two, but primarily one, The 2015 30 Jaher/Year special addition M5 and or the X5M. Cant tell you how many times I've seen that X5M being driven by women that didn't pay the 160K for it walking the streets near the city of Chicago.... kinda sickens me, but I digress. Though as you all will read, I'm not expecting for someone to go give me one of those, the car I was looking at was only 4K, well, I talked them own to 3500 and he was willing to let me put 2500 down and work the rest off, which would be godsend because I could do that, and with a vehicle of my own (been without one since January of 2013 because my parents stole the last of my money for a car when my taurus died,) I'd be able to at least stay off the street, and do a better job of getting to and from doctors to remedy this nearly fatal situation. 6 weeks on the street with cancer, has really hardened me, I'm amazed Im still even alive.
Churches helping here and there, only ones I can walk to from the local library for wifi access. It's getting to a point where I'm not really sure how long I'm going to be able to hang on and stick around to see if anyone could actually help.
So I write this as a plea for my life to any place that I've been before that showed me empathy and compassion or appreciation at any level. I've been looking for 6 words me entire life, "The most basic of human compassions," and have only found it in the places one would expect the least.
So I pray with every iota in my being, that you guys can help.
Regards & Respectfully Kristopher
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